Flamming winter

Need you now

2012-01-02T16:11:00.002+08:00

Anyong chingu!
Alin Amyrah Anisah,Hanna and Aynaa...

I'LL MISS YOU GUYS!

STUDY SMART OKAY?!

LET'S DO THE BEST IN SPM, BE THE BEST AND BEAT THE REST! :)

Seeya! ^.^
With lots and lots of love! :)

Chances to be grab

2012-01-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

Tonight will be the last night before I head back to that freaky place. Yes, surely I'll have a tight sleep and hopefully to have sweet dreams too. Same as what Hariz said in his tweet, I want to make this year, the only year to strive my best before heading to UK or Aussie for accounting course. ACCA! No more lounging and goofing around, serious business waiting ahead!

Aja-aja Hwaiting! :)

Here's a song for you guys... my favorite song since I was in standard 5.
Read those lyrics okay?
I'll be back in one year! :)

Leisure time is now over

2012-01-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

2012 IS HERE!
Didn't celebrate it with my family, but with friends instead! Hanging out at McD, share stories and waiting for the clock to tick.Am I ready for it? Still couldn't answer that question.The only thing in my mind is to finish SPM papers as soon as possible, that's my main target!

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During the EXACT this time next year, I''m FREE and WILL HAVE MY OWN DRIVING LICENSE! Can't wait for it! :)

我，不是平凡的女孩

2011-12-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

我，从小都没有吃过苦命。可是，今天我比需接受这个事实。我们的家不可能像以前那样过着丰富的生活。。还要过几天学校又要开，可是什么都还没有买到。看来，今年没有得新校服穿，没有新鞋子，没有新书包。全都用回去年的东西。嗨。。。我真得不知道真么度过之些日子了。向来都有钱，要什么就的什么，一张开眼睛全都有了。现在，如果一天能吃到三餐，就太辛云了！爸爸必须负债，我不知道我还可以忍多久。。。

Everything will come to its end

2011-12-29T21:17:00.001+08:00

School will reopen and I'm going away again. I really hate the fact that I need to pack my things, and then bathing with tears when I realize that I'm there once again. Hoping that 2012 will draw beautiful pictures in my thoughts for me to retrieve. I didn't do much during the holidays, didn't meet people that I wish to see and didn't do those chores I've jot down earlier. What I did is just laying lazily on the couch, watch TV programmed and put on massive weight. In less then 48 hours, 2011 will pull it curtains down. When 2012 finally reveal itself, I need to put back all the bad patch and leisure to concentrate on SPM. Big decision to make, I need to leave k-pop and all the extensive leisure time for awhile. SPM is a serious business, not that PMR or UPSR aren't, just that... ahh you know how the letters in the result could affect one's life! Hee~ Sorry, put it in a really harsh way. :) For me, that piece of paper is like a magic wand that will separate you between a good life or vice versa. I'm just hoping that I could do well in this exam, to end my school life perfectly. I know well enough that hope and wishes without hard work won't do, so I need to sacrifice a lot to strive it. :)

So, bidding goodbye... for now. :)

I am tired

2011-12-21T21:38:00.001+08:00

THOUGHT THAT I'M DONE WITH YOU.

BUT WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN,

ITS A BIG NO-NO!

Let me think of it sometime later

2011-12-10T22:53:00.001+08:00

Guess that I'll brake my own record, updating blog each hour.
You can obviously see that I'm in epic boredom! OKAY, stop that, now let's mesmerize my new blog skin. Thanks to the creator, I'm just borrowing her creativity. :p

I didn't do this for quite sometime now... *close your eyes*

*TARA*

Let's spazz a lill' about dearest SHINee! They've come back with their Japanese album! Hee~
I didn't expect anything from their Japanese songs at first, ~~because of some reasons I don't need to tell~~ but they prove me wrong when their songs are nice, like seriously nice, not because I'm their die-hard-fan or anything just because they are NICE! *phew* Actually, I don't know what's the best word to describe it. The track for this blog is from one of the Japanese songs... Just, listen to it! :p

Here's another track that I love from that album...

p/s: If you don't like it, I won't mind. Just, respect people's opinion, MY OPINION!

Love,
Toodles!

When Advantages were shadowed by disadvantages

2011-12-10T20:31:00.001+08:00

THIS IS IT.

When you're home alone and you have the capability and skills to prepare a dish, you'll rummage around the kitchen and fridge to make one. Even when you're not really that hungry for foods. Then, found nothing but eggs in the fridge, so a plate of omelet was served.
Then, you found a fast-food pamphlet under a pile of papers, your hand would be itching to punch in the numbers after seeing those mouth watering pictures, and unconsciously placed an order. After you finished the meal, than you would be grunting about how much calories and fats have you been chewing in. Next, you would be tweeting, posting on blog and tumblr for how much you regret taking so much food in a short time. And lastly, you would be piercing your family and friends' eardrum with so much complains about how much your weight has gain and how your stomach bloated with the beverage that you've drink. Sigh...

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENING TO ME. Aigoo... T.T

Troublesome Me

2011-12-10T18:34:00.001+08:00

Anyong!

I'm back from hanging out with both Sunbae! Unfortunately, Hanna couldn't join us for some reason. ~~Too bad...~~We still didn't manage to make up the OT6-day-out. T.T

We had brunch (Since Anisah insist us to skip breakfast so that we could eat a lot then) at The Street as usual. Gosh, I've finally ended my craving-ness towards Kimchi and Bibimbab today! I had a hard time to make up my mind, because truthfully I want to eat everything in the menu, instead of just picking one. 6 months of waiting, and finally when the taste of Kimchi run through the vains of each taste bud, it feels like heaven! Hee ~ :) ~~But,Bulgogi bibimbab taste much more better than shrimp Bibimbap~~.

Then, head to Red Box for the main highlight-activity-of-the-day! Mwaah! Karaoke session! Red Box seriously updated with K-pop songs, even coin Jackson is in the list. *LOL*

I'm not a good singer (obviously), so, I've ruined every notes and lyrics for each song! Jumping like mad during the 'Hands up' song, and suddenly the waiter comes barging in without prior notice, and forbid us from jumping on the couch. *both palms on face* But then, start to jump again. Hee~

Wrap up the day with some Japanese food. (Sorry, don't really remember the name) But, it certainly does taste nice! :)

Guess that this will be the second last hang out after all (Reunion coming after).... *teary eyes*

Hwaiting everyone!

난 아라 할 수있다!

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p/s: -I'm anticipating 17th! (cross-finger, hoping that I could show up on that night!)

-Somehow, I'm anticipating SPM. (but not yet prepared)

-Lastly, 28th Dec 2012. :) run away huh? *Evil smile*

pp/s: Excuse me for the childish writing up there ^^!

Time is ticking

2011-12-09T18:16:00.001+08:00

I was sleeping for the whole day, and finally woke up. :)

I've been thinking... should my life for next 3 weeks be like this? Sleep, online and eat for the whole time? I need to do something, rather than just wasting time in front of this desktop. 504 hours have been drained just like that, I could do thousands of things in those hours. Like really.

*IF YOU WERE THERE TO FORCE ME*

Too bad that I just come to my senses now!
Its ~~quite~~ tooooo late to relize!

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Birthday wish once again!

생일 축하 해요 !

난 항상 당신 곁에있을 게요,

뭐가 됐든 상관 없다.

샤이니 파이팅! :)

When someone screwed your mood

2011-12-09T01:38:00.001+08:00

I've been scrolling on random blogs and I end up stumbled upon this so-not-unknown girl. Well, I don't know whether I'm being extremely jealous of her or it is her doing and writing about her so beloved boyfriend that makes me wanna vomit. I think the second option is the best one!!

Aigoo..I'm gonna see her again...
Gosh! I'm tired of drama! Tooooooo much drama in my way! Shooh, go away!

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Danngg!
We sure gonna be like this when school re-open... T.T

My Flame throughout winter

2011-12-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

Happy 21st birthday Choi Min Ho!

Almost 3 years has passes by since I know you, and you've changed a lot..

Stay healthy always okay?

Have been waiting for years, and finally I've let you go...
Bye bye...

p/s: Still hoping that someday I could meet you or be friends maybe? Who knows.

Anyong!

Cutest Panda I guess.. ! :)

Shivering Cold

2011-12-08T11:57:00.001+08:00

Nobody have rights to judge my Mum! I don't give a damn about who you are, you just have no rights to condemn or say anything about her. I don't mind if she's the meanest, cruel person in the whole universe,she's still my one and only Mum. Don't you get it? You can say anything about her or poison my mind with your venom but it wouldn't work! Get it?

No one knows how much it actually hurts when people starts to talk about their Mum. It hurts when they started to tell their stories, how they spent time with their mum... I may look like I'm fine with all these craps, but in fact I'm hurting inside. I'm yearning for my Mum's hug and kisses for years. I want it so badly right now...

Boredom!

2011-12-06T16:31:00.001+08:00

I wish I could come out with an Idea towrite something here. Like really, it has been month or probably years since I last wrote something useful here.
Gosh! Life is just getting boring as it is...

Please don't go

2011-11-06T21:25:00.003+08:00

I bet I won't live peacefully there if they found this out!

WHATEVER! They don't even know this blog exist!

All the best for you... :)

Hang On The Balance

2011-10-27T20:58:00.003+08:00

Finally get the chance to write here again! :)
Nothing much to say... Back for 4 days and gonna face the final SEM exam next week!

Guess what? We haven't finish most of the syllabus, yet the questions are ready! Cross finger for next week! T.T

Naah..!
Some pics from Tumpat! :)

Just arrive! 10 hours of journey!
Seriously my butt hurt so much T.T
LOL!

Just before canoeing

After the dance.... :(

Lepak dekat cafe..

Heading home....

Sweet memories... after cycling! :)

Just like a flying blue bird

2011-09-17T21:13:00.004+08:00

A trip to Tumpat was really a wonderful experience that I've had. The Leadership Convention is awesome, its not because of the activity that they held, but the memories that I've gathered for five days the we had spent there. Truthfully, the first two days are boredom! But when it gets to the third, things are getting better when we get to know people better. As you know I'm still fresh in my college, new students are always being ignored, isn't? But, I get the chance to know them better in 5 days.

They're nice to be known, the two girls that accompanied my presents there and 5 guys that I rarely talk to in school. Well, Tikah and Faizah are actually nice, but literally gets annoying when they starts cussing without any reason. DF, Mizan, Edhan, Mizi and Farouk are nice too. Especially the first three person that were mentioned. :) Not to forget my new friends from Merbok. Yaya, Nana, Nini, Lala, Nizam, Haris, Rifky and Ash. Obviously I'm close to those four girls than those boys, but they really spice up this trip. :)

One thing that I can never forget about this trip is when I've to dance to the Bollywood Song with Mizan. It was really... eermmm humiliating I guess?! Ashamed! I can never look at his face again! Almost forgot, we won't second place for the musical! I bet if teacher did help us in preparation, we could have done much better! :)

The presentation is a different story, another unforgettable-humiliation-killing moment! It really test our patience, when we were not provided with any presentation board and laptops. While other college already prepared their board and slides with LCDs and projectors, we looked like someone that are lost in the middle of a sea. :(

I hope we could have time to gather around again, to meet them and know them better. :)

With lots of love, signing out.

Promise you guys with some pictures and videos when I get the chance to write again.

Anyong! :)

PDRM and MERBOK <3

P/S: I DID some mistakes that I can never take back, and not really know how to change the situation right now. Something that shouldn't be done by a girl, I supposed....

Shine like a shooting star

2011-08-28T00:52:00.005+08:00

Woohooh! Finally I'm back in town!

Back in home, get to lie down on my OWN bed is the best feeling that I ever had!

I t as been a tough month back there, Sem 2 exam is tougher than I thought, and I could predict what's gonna be written on those exam papers... Sad thing. Whatevah! :p Next exam will be right after Raya, so start strudying from now baybeh!

Gish! I'm tired of those drama there, when it will ends? I don't know, just kneeled on and pray...

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Finally bought my Raya clothes and as usual, I'll regret whatever I bought... T.T

Everything looks nice when you're in the store, but when you're back home, it looks... hmmmpph... T.T DISAPPOINTED!

Ooowh, and one more thing, I've chop my long hair and straightened it again, just like Minzy's hair in 'UGLY'.... Hehehehee....

Till then, see you guys soon! >.<

you're not easy to forget

2011-08-01T17:16:00.001+08:00

WE MISS YOU TOO OKAY. WE MISS ALL THE THINGS YOU MISS TOO.

It's okay. As long as you remember and miss us and we remember and miss you too, everything will be okay. We'll still be 6. OT6 okay, OT6 <3 I think we really need a picture of all of us 6 together.

Hanna :)

Searching for rhythm

2011-08-01T14:21:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow, 12 pm sharp. I'm on my way to Kedah again.

Despite 4 months and 10 days that I've been spending my time there, but, I still cannot accept it, the way it was supposed to be. I'm still hoping that one day, I could wake up in the same bed I usually do, put on green uniform and step in that school that I've left for months.

Still wishing that I could sit on my usual place in the class, meeting people that I've been missing. Listen to their jokes, I'll just seat there watching them goofing around and silently crack a smile. Missing those time when we hang out in Surau, walk to 7E every Thursday and run away from our library duty, the we'll be scolded on the next meeting. God knows how much I missed those things.

p/s: I miss Amiga '08 so much! Amyrah, Alin, Hanna Aynaa, Anisah... Aeen and Amall too!

Mighty Mind

2011-07-29T19:13:00.002+08:00

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Venom

2011-07-21T19:17:00.000+08:00

Don't ask me why, just because...

Fly So High

2011-07-20T21:36:00.004+08:00

Anyong people!

God knows how much I miss blogging, twittering and tumblring. Wishing that I could bring this PC back to hostel! :p

So... this tiring week gonna end soon, which means the robotic competition will be here just in few days. Gonna leave to Trolak this Friday, and I need to borrow school T-shirts from them (which is the thing that I hate the most, borrow people's clothes? No way!)The best part is I'm yet to prepare anything about it, and there's a theoretical test will go on. And questions that will be asked are about electrical components and computer programming(WHAT THE HELL IS COMPUTER PROGRAMMING?). Eergh, now I'm regretting for not paying full attention in KH class before! Andwaaaeeee!

Yeay! Going back home in less than 8 days!

But, before that tons of tons of notes to be passed up. And the 'best' news is yet to come! Our exam will be on as soon as we came back from this upcoming holiday.... T.T

And... I've been waiting for you guys to online for ths past few weeks, since I'm in the computer lab for 24/7... But, none of you guys are there... T.T

But never mind, see you guys soon!

Ooooowh! One more thing.... Happy belated Birthday Taemin!!!! :)

Gonna miss your Baby Face!

Between fiction and fact

2011-05-28T00:57:00.004+08:00

- The one who sits in the middle-

Mianhae Nana! Hehehe... really sorry for not having the chance to take a picture of you, so I just take it from any of your album.

Wanna know something? I was scared when I first saw you. Don't ask me why, I couldn't answer that. .~~Or maybe its because of your fierce look~~ But, its nice when I got the chance to know you , and hoping that I'll know you better in the future. Smile always, okay?

Overwhelmed by perfection

2011-05-27T11:44:00.006+08:00

Just visit SFI after months... and I was welcomed with this greeting,

and this!

This MV can't get any better... :)

Are they real?

2011-05-27T00:21:00.010+08:00

-In school uniform-

-Our drama team! :) -

-One of those rare peaceful and beautiful moment-

-Wahee... my table-mate, the person that always been nice since my 1st day-

-Me and Shafeeqa, the only person that I felt comfortable with-

So... what your feeling when you're excited to be home, and than you were ignored? Booo!

I could sum up my days in that place as... pathetic! Ignored by my classmates during my first 2 weeks in that rebellious class, the most wanted class and the most haters and antis in that college. I f you ask me what I had learn in past two months, the answer is "How to be fake with people around you". Almost all of them are fake to each other, even if they're in the same gang, I just don't understand how they could live like that.

-That's my opinion, if you feel butt hurt with it, sorry then-

Sometimes, I hope that I could turn back in time and stay in USJ 12. How pathetic twelveans are, they are way better than those people in that college. Ooowh, almost forgot! I thought our library is the worst library ever exist on Earth, but you could come and see mine to know what 'worst' really means!

But, still I mange to met some nice people there... Hope that their nice really means nice...

And now, I'm waiting for SEM 1's result !

Physically apart

2011-03-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

Thanks Hanna.

I know its a sudden news, I didn't expect that either, or I did but wish that it could be later. I'll do my best there and try my best not to flunk my test especially Add Math and Biology :) There's a lot to catch up! Let's hang out before I leave okay ?

Lies that lead to another lie

2011-03-08T19:49:00.007+08:00

거짓말

The dreadful month of the year has come to visit again. March seldom gives me happiness, just arguments and fights that could be found. Yes I am paranoid, I'm scared if those things that previously happened will happen again. I'm afraid if I'll loose more people around me, I'm scared if people leave me one by one, I'm frightened of something that I can never see and can never sense. I'm paranoid, I know that well enough, and I'm trying hard enough to get out of this box.

Girl who can't break up, boy who can't leave

2011-03-07T22:44:00.006+08:00

I guess this is it, I've got the permission to resign from my dad! Yeay, superb awesomeness! Since you asks us to resign and I think you're ~~extremely really~~ quite annoyed with us, so this will be the best way for everyone. You said that you're not racist or anything and really did try hard to use that 'concept', but without you realize, you are being racist!

That's the first point, you asked us to change and we did. But, each time we change and follow all your words, you would ignore us (like what you did this morning). Its painful enough to be one of those second class people in the board, despite you keep saying that you're being fair in every way.I know its my fault too, for not doing my duty well and didn't have that 'suppose-to be-my-responsibility' way of thinking. But, its the condition, situation and the way we're treated that lead us to be THIS way. So who's in fault now? You ask us to mingle around with people and we tried, but they're the one who avoid from us. Are you asking us to chase people who don't want to be with us ???

I know for sure you will give us another long lecture tomorrow. And maybe I would cry, cause from some of your words that are sharp enough to kill people's heart.

Always know how to make people laugh :)

Stalking Random People

2011-03-02T14:17:00.003+08:00

*sneeze*

Its really dusty here. Well, blame me for having a brain that would ruin the usage of every proper word, fingers that couldn't type flawlessly and will never give me idea to write anything. Seriously, I have nothing to write. Maybe I should delete this blog! :)

MARCH TEST GIVE ME A HARD TIME. I couldn't answer chemistry paper,I've forgot all the formula in Modern Maths(even when teacher gives us formula sheet) and Physics (I've tried to memorize everything,but everything went blank as soon as I get the paper), did the wrong format in BM paper and I have no idea for English literature!Surprisingly, account and sejarah are quite easy! ^^ I just couldn't predict what will happen when results are out.

FELT LIKE GIVING UP EST SINCE THERE'S NO ONE GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE! Hate it when I need to face it alone. T.T

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Take a break!

Next battle --> EST and ADD MATH!

Too perfect to be perfect

2011-02-21T18:05:00.003+08:00

Another 144 hours to March exam! I've no idea why they called it 'March' when they actually do it on FEBRUARY, 28 FEB 2011! =.= Since exam will be here, I need to hold from updating craps on this blog, reblog stuff on Tumblr and tweet nonsense stuff on twitter. ~~well, I always said those ^ but never do it~~, hoping that this time will work!

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Fail again! Kena reject denagn MRSM and SBP lagi! Maybe my results are just 'okay-okay' cukup-cukup makan. Aigoo... T.T

But each time I felt like giving up, this picture will help me! (I wanna grab my own degree someday.~~,degree won't be enough I need more!~~)

Note: Don't look at it for more than 30 seconds!

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Super Junior M is awesome! I hate it at first, when they reveal it on that radio show. ~~knocking my head on the table.~~

Hawtness alert! :)

(Credit to Tumblr)

Who should I choose ?

2011-02-19T15:02:00.004+08:00

Getting sick to read this kind of status. " Yeay, I bought SS3 tickets!" Yes, I'm jealous, and if they're right in front of me right now, I ~~felt like~~ wanna give them a kick or at least a smack.

Form 1 and 2 are getting really snotty these days. Mentang-mentang baru masuk sekolah menengah nak berlagak cam samseng kat sini la eh? And that's not the first time I saw her being bitchy. Erghhh! Wait till we meet again, you'll get what you deserve!

And there's one more freak who plays Lucifer right beside me. T.T

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Our March test will be here soon and I haven't prepare anything yet.

Jumping On The Cloud

2011-02-18T21:27:00.006+08:00

*Fixing Minho's hair*

I'm really happy today, I don't know what or who make me smile the whole day, but I just felt like smiling, and jumping around.

Okay, let's start with this. Watermelon is 'absent' today, and its also her birthday. I'm freaking relieve when Amalia told me that she didn't come and I literally scream 'yeah' out loud, hoping that no one hears me. The funny thing is, her father show up after recess with cake and drinks along with Puan Teoh. I bet, he beg to teacher to celebrate it in class! His face change when we told teacher that she's not in school, pity him... (But, that's not the reason why I''m freaking happy right now.)

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. *jumping around*

Stop smiling you freak!

I need to stop, really do.

blackout

2011-02-14T15:16:00.007+08:00

I'm being a bitch in my class lately, screaming like a lost women, calling people bitch and fuck like I own those words. Those are absolutely not me, and will never be me! I really need to find a way to get out of this mess, before I gain haters like he does, 하지만... 어떻게?

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Its a sad thing when you call BEAST as B-2-S-T, when you call Siwon as SHE WON, you don't know who U-KISS are, and you're a big fan of 2PM, but you don't even know how their songs are.

Fail is terrifying

2011-01-21T13:19:00.002+08:00

Let's make this short.... I failed!

Lean on you

2011-01-18T15:22:00.006+08:00

The only phrase that crossed my mind....

DO NOT DREAM FOR WHAT YOU WISH FOR

I'll never walk alone, again

2011-01-17T16:27:00.005+08:00

A day without watermelon is AWESOME! No kidding, its true! I could answer my Add Math question without hesitating and almost flawless! And I could finish my notes and concentrate in class without anyone complaining that the class is too boring, or she needs to sleep. What a great day! :)

I looked like this when I realize she didn't come

Waiting for postman to send in good news for me! Please..please..please I can't wait any longer.

My heart never constrict him

2011-01-16T11:03:00.009+08:00

Does that title indicate anything?

Yesterday was a blast! Spent an awesome day with Anisah, Alin and Hanna. Ate lunch at McD and BR for dessert. We were spazzing about everything and anything that comes in our mind. The best part is yet to come... We went back to Alin's crib, and my mind were corrupted by unqualified teachers. Our brain and eyes losses its virginity. It all began with a question about this 'word' and the curiosity of our innocent brain, and everything went out of control... we were laughing like a idiot psycho and hoping that no one could hear us! :) ~~Currently avoiding to see the lower body part of people who were related to yesterday's conversations!~~

Then we went to Hanna's house, while they were watching Mychonny's videos, I have to treat Hanna's brother since he keep bothering us and asked to play the 'Antu' videos. I have no idea what he was talking about, so I let him watch Ben 10 and Ultraman Cosmos videos, but he keep on asking to change the video.Wonder how Hanna could be patient with him...

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Sunbae, who should I pair with to represent 2min??? ~~sarcastic tone~~

p/s: I'm Imagining Hanna doing that to someone who supposed to represent Taemin.

Future is gesturing towards me

2011-01-13T17:58:00.011+08:00

Syidd! School sucks these days!!!

Why did I get watermelon as my partner, why do I get her to sit with me??? If Li Ling walk in the class earlier, I could sit with her and my life won't be miserable. I should scream at her like I did to that sweaty boy yesterday! I was relief after I did that. Heelll yeah, he didn't even look at me today, and didn't say a word. Did I tell you, he usually say lots of craps, and gives me the I'm-so-smart face? Ooowh, I remember his face when I asked him to shut up, and when he bumped into me this morning, his face literally changed! Gosh, should I scream to people more often?

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I was spazzing about the K-pop party to Myra, when suddenly the weird Shahirah turn around and asked whether I'm going to the party tonight. I should said 'yes'! Why didn't I think of it? I'm so not good at lying! :p

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Is being in Explorer-sub science-and accounting a bad choice??? Is being in E class means that we're not smart and useless? My mind was so preoccupied with these questions. I resented it when people discriminate us. Like,"You guys are in...normal..middle..class, you should be quiet!" or "I'll give you a week to memorize this periodic table since you're in Explorer." WTH!

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Sunbae change stream and she's in Delphi now. I was crushed when she told me that. Aaah, I should be grateful, at least she accompany me for PE class... we'll see each other more often after this, since we'll merge our class. And, it won't be long, we'll get SBP offer soon, so yeah.~~I literally cried on Amanda's shoulder when Sunbae turn around.~~ But, Wee Sheng and Li ling sure know how to cheer me up, and giving the thought that Hariz was there too, I wiped my tears off. :)

Its all about you

2011-01-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

-ON HIATUS-

I'm gonna off my phone, not gonna online till certain period. No reason, its just because I want to.

-FAREWELL

Beethoven without music

2011-01-06T17:58:00.002+08:00

4th day of school felt like 4 months!

8 reasons why hate it so much:

watermelon + sweaty boy are annoying.
3 teachers won't be around for months!
Teacher's assistant for history? That's my least favorite subject!
They're freaking quiet. (make some noise people!)
No one to talk to or spazz!
People who says they know k-pop, but the fact is they don't know anything!
Aynaa and Anisah won't be around.
I miss my Amiga oh eight so much! T.T

I can't bear with this situation right now, I don't care if others finds me jump around like crazy if I meet my friends, I just want them to be around me. Always! I don't give a damn if they want to say that I'm a freak, hug my friends whenever I see them and whenever we're apart. I need to bear with these for the sake of accounting!

Somehow you really look like me

2011-01-03T20:00:00.002+08:00

First day in Form 4 is..... =.=

This gif is epic! And yeah, that's Minho! :p

Waiting for an answer

2011-01-01T23:46:00.005+08:00

Anyong! I'm back from KL! :)

Why do they always plan something without telling me ? Again, I make the same mistake! I thought we're going for dinner at any mamak stall of something. But then, we end up roaming KL.

=.="

SHINee held their first solo concert today :) There's this kinda weird feeling when I look at those pictures. Seeing them sweating like hell, I bet they really enjoyed those moments, and enthusiastically performed for dear Shawols. When Jonghyun cried at the end of the concert while Taemin scream "Gwenchana", really touch my heart. Knowing that almost all SM family, BEAST and 2AM was there to support them make me wanna cry. ~~And realizing Minho's family was there, I wish I was there... too.~~ *wink*

Aigoo..so your love is like pimple?

When it is tough, lean on the rhythm

2010-12-31T16:12:00.006+08:00

Hey people! Just come back from Sunway! :( I'm not going there in another 3 months or more (except for certain circumstances) Went there with the worst outfit, I guess! And almost thorn sandals! Its extremely pack there, like in sardine tin. I almost vomit there seeing a couple stand before me, when I was buying drinks, ~~get a room mann!.~~

~~-----------~~

Its the last day of 2010, and 2011 will be here tomorrow. I'm still waiting for gifts though! =.=

I don't know how to face tomorrow, I'll turn 16 tomorrow! I can't imagine this, and I 'm still learning to handle the facts that I've finished my PMR and next step will be SPM, and if God wills, I wanna live in South Korea.

I really hate the fact that I'm gonna spend a few months of life with a bunch of people that I barely know, despite the fact that I've met them for the past 3 years. (wishing to get offer from boarding school A.S.A.P! ) :p

The glare I'm giving out is like toxic

2010-12-30T23:11:00.012+08:00

Am I late? I guess so. :/

Currently watching Suju collaborating with CN Blue and Sistar on KBS' Gayo Daejun.

Its getting boring after the opening by Jonghyun, Yo Soeb, Junsu and Changmin. Their voices are awesome, and their English pronunciation are freakin' good!

-Kara Lupin-

So here I am updating this almost dying blog. :) And watching videos from SBS' Gayo Daejun(Its SBS, the top one is KBS, don't make yourself confuse! ~~just incase~~) . Hoping this show will get better soon.

-Huh 4 minute-

Finally Beast ends this boredom!

LOL :)

Wishing that I'm not an ugly duckling

2010-12-30T16:00:00.004+08:00

Recently they posted lots of our childhood pictures on FB. I realized that I'm not there in most pictures and even if I'm in, I'll be at the back row, or hidden by something or someone. Now I know the reasons for not having any childhood memories.

I realized how bad I look back then. And it does answer my question for not having anyone praising me for how I look, because I'm always ugly in their eyes,maybe. I always crave for people telling me how pretty I am, when I heard they praises my brothers or sister. Perhaps this is why I'm always alone.

Yes! you're the swan and I'm just an ugly duckling. Till today, I still put on my black-rimmed spectacles with ponytails, while you could dress in anything you wish!

Open up your wings at leisure

2010-12-29T18:36:00.007+08:00

Hello! Hello!
Announcement people! New layout!!! :)

Woah! Malaysia won 4-2! (aggregate though). Its okay, at least we won, wonder what kind of weird and lame excuses will they give. Enough of football stuff. -- --

Watch 0.38-0.42 carefully! :)

I am special, wonderful, beautiful and powerful

2010-12-28T23:02:00.005+08:00

They look so loving here, I hope they really do :)

Owwh! Freakin' fush! Erhh...!

Why do they reveal everything in Japan? Plus they performed on Christmas, bonus point for them! =.= And when will you guys breath in Malaysia's oxygen??? When will you guys come here??? Even though I won't be watching your performance, but knowing that you're here will lightened my day!

First the Quasimodo's MV and those solo performance are Daebak!!! Taeminie's voice is awesome, you're so gonna have lots of parts after this! Minho.. If you practice harder, you could be way better than Usher! LOL :)

Gosh, I'm so proud of you guys, but the jealousy flame for Japanese fans is still here! LOL

Rite! Almost forgot! Ermm.. Girls Story, Pinky pinky? I guess, its not your time yet, and their MV didn't show anything about their talent, and I don't even know what those lyrics means! Mianhae. *wink*

Black reminds me of you

2010-12-28T21:18:00.006+08:00

Anyong everyone!

This is the not-so-awesome new layout. So, if anyone found a better blogskin, please please do tell me. Why is it so hard to find something that suits me? ~~Even people!~~

Went to Sunway with Sunbae today, and receive the absolutely not awesome news. Its okay I guess, we'll meet again sometime. :)

Watched Narnia. Truthfully I'm not a big fan of fairy-tale, maybe I'm same as Eustace Scrubb :p And, Alin will be Lucy Pevensile and change my mind. :)

Finding for blue or red bag but end up with none like my imagination. Bought zebra line school bag (Alin called it), which means new year will be here and I'll be sitting in new class next year. I think new school will be better than watching us apart every single day.

I'm in bad mood without knowing the reason or reasons! Maybe because SM didn't official-ize Quasiomodo MV =.= Why do SM love to torture me? or us, shawols?

Find some macros to cheer me up, and they really did! :)

They were on a boat and they're talking and laughing but Onew is just sitting and smiling. I love his dorky face here!

LOL. This remind me of.. I haven't buy birthday gift for anyone yet!

p/s: Sunbae thanks for delivering!

Hanna, you're welcome! :D

Chain of good news

2010-12-23T21:25:00.003+08:00

Anyong bloggie! Do you miss me? I never miss you!

I get my As' and I'm gonna buy my new phone soon, and waiting for people to gift me present. LOL.

But, my freedom and happiness didn't last long. They're now nagging about SPM and my future. WTH? At least wait till school re-open or let me celebrate this awesome day first. Aigoo... the burden is heavier right now. T.T

I love this duet! I'm sorry Aynaa, I can't take my eyes off Dongwoon. :p

SFI change their layout and its WINTER! I'm freaking proud right now :) When I first open it up, HIS angelic smiling face pop on my screen, that is more than awesome! I know oppa, that's your way to say congrats to me rite? I hope so...

Belated birthday wish

2010-12-14T23:53:00.003+08:00

생일축하합니다 온유 oppa!

I'm late I know that! Don't need to remind me.

Make us smile with your SANGTAE! :)

14.12.2010

clenching my heart because of you

2010-12-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

Minho oppaaaaaaa...

My hoobae asked me to do this since your birthday is tomorrow. And you damn well should know that she regretted me taking over her place whereas this should be HER job, since well it's her responsibility anyway.

Anyway, Minho opppppaaaaa....

생일축하합니다 :)

*coughscougheistheguyontheleftcoughs*

That's like, my fav picture of MinKey.. simply because...

Let's put it this way, if I'm about to introduce them to anyone who doesn't know about their existence (we're talking bout people who lives under rocks here), I can just say,

"Hi, the one on the right is Key and he's indeed, as showed obviously, is a diva. Whereas the guy on the left is Key's exact opposite, Choi Minho and he is, indeed, precious as he seems."

And then I'll discreetly add,

'But you're wasting your time if you're thinking of liking him, because he only dates girls like my hoobae"

*insert angelic smile here*

Boy, am I such a charmer?

Anyway, umm, Minho oppa? You better visit her in Dreamland today, cause she misses you so much you have no idea. I'm just here to fill in the blanks in her blog.

But still, Happy Birthday from me to you :)

Oh and before I forget, thanks for making my hoobae happy since... since...

Well, both of you know when *winks*

*blows flying kisses*

- Alin sunbae

Loving you with conditions

2010-11-23T00:43:00.005+08:00

~~Just iron my uniform for the... final time.~~ (should I write this, really?)

Why must we wear uniform to sit for that IQ test? Its not in school compound anyway! Hoping that I could pass that test and be in boarding school next year, please please pretty please gimme that chance! How's my result? How will 28th December be? If I could skip that day... no I don't.

Credit to YID.MILAN on SFI

Pianist will be air on either 27th November or 4th December, and the GREAT news is, its the same date as my cousin's wedding, I mean it, BOTH date!

"Don't know how to play pool! Ah...Everybody, pool is a sport! I will not be lousy at it~~ Understand??" -Minho

If I could keep you in my pocket

2010-11-19T22:49:00.008+08:00

I'm scrolling allkpop as usual today, and guess what did I found? SM's new project, SM Ballad blah blah group. Ooowh, you can see that I'm piss-off rite now and about to cry too. Well the reason is because jjong is in the group and Kyuhyun too. Well, not being an over possessive-fanatic-fan. But, duh, they already have their own group, I'm just scared that they'll spend more time with that band more than their own. Just hope that its not permanent, its hard to predict SM's head! Paranoid.Lucky I found some cute videos, that makes me calm a little. And Oh My School premier this Tuesday, yeay can't wait to watch Minho and jjong!

Hello reverse version. I could only hear "oouh hai oouh hai" till the end, but its funny!

Today, I wake up at 12 noon again! Imagine that, how can I do that? Gosh, please don't make it happen again! And I RECEIVE the "Ujian Kemasukan MRSM" letter, which I mistaken by an offer letter to MRSM! Don't blame me for that, I just wake up! Ooouh.. ottokae? What should I read? I don't think my brain will function well after months of break... Aigooo T.T

*Found Amyrah's Ferrero Rocher and her novel

And... two posts in a day? Its obvious that I'm bored!

"Ever since I turned 22, I've grown weaker. I think I'm going to die after riding a slide once."- Onew

Stop stealing my heart, dumb dumb!

2010-11-18T23:40:00.007+08:00

So now the Sneak Peak for Minho's first drama is out, which gives me dumbstruck and jealous for no reason. Okay, truthfully, I've really got into those fics, so that makes me mixed up all reality and fairy tale. ~~Which makes me scared that those noona, ( guess most of them are noona) will go into pedophile mood and fall for him or he's gonna be noona-whoring.~~ Craps! Yaaah, what am I thinking, I should get my sleep!

Gosh, this pic have totally nothing with this post!

I'm done with My Bad Boy Kim Jong Hyun and My weird Alien Choi Minho (not completed yet, gonna be retard till she update new chapter!) Its awesome, but my eyes are aching like hell, 5 hours staring at your monitor is not a great idea, never will. Romeo + Juliette and Y Si Fuerra Ella keep on playing in my mind when I read those fics, those songs really suits the story especially the emo part,hysssh, stop it! Gonna take a break tomorrow and continue with Love Note as recommended by Hanna :p

Somehow, the Alien thingy story is really similar to what I wish. I mean similar, not everything. Note that! Is everyone wishing they could end up with him like that ? Am I just same as people out there. If its a YES, I couldn't hold onto him anymore. Can't lie.

Truth could be miserable, but I doubt lying could lead a happy life.

I'm waiting for that day

2010-11-16T22:11:00.006+08:00

Feeding myself with extra dose of SHINee's video and lots of Minkey and Onho!

I'm finding for blogskin, but it need to be much better form the current and previous skin,

I have high demand, I know, so what? I need the best! Syshhh

Seeing Minho talk so much and hyper these days really makes me happy, but its also frightening! I've never heard he laugh like this and talk so much, but guess that's good for him that he's now comfortable with those variety shows or maybe Key gave him a dose of his craziness?

Hmm... anyong! Back to those videos! ^^

When you're tired or having a hard time, please let me stand by your side -Life

I want you to say this to me

2010-11-16T11:17:00.003+08:00

"Stop contacting him..Because you have me"

Kill me or Love me

2010-11-15T21:08:00.010+08:00

Just come back alive after the freakin' pain of fever.. yes, indeed 3 days after bbq party (didn't take any picture T.T), only I had fever, isn't that funny? Felt like dying at that moment, and I had to follow my dad back to hometown, so just imagine the painful for two and a half hour of journey!

Tell me how am I suppose to spend two months without exams, school and friends? This is hell boring! I know its weird to say that I miss school so much, but I'm used to that kind of life!

Posted almost 2o posts on SFI, seriously, I've nothing to do than goin there... And I freakin hate those shawols from ehemehemehem country, they're the cause for Jjong suffocate from ligament injury, WTH! Get well soon!

Watching Hello Baby like a mad person laughing non-stop, seriously, my stomach is aching, imagine you just puke and you need to laugh...

Beast's Beautiful is Daebak! Watching it when my brother suddenly comes in and spoiled the moment with typical boy's reaction :"Eeeww hate it, they're so gay!" And when I asked him why , he replied because they're just so howt and handsome. Jealousy, is that why people hate them?

Gonna continue with SHINee's wake up game! ^^

Alin! Thanks for the signature!

Summary of Our Days

2010-11-12T19:29:00.017+08:00

It was an awesome night! Its hard for me to accept the fact that we need to get this thing over and start a new one. Its a night to remember, even though we didn't have a good start at first, everything was in a chaos, but we did get through it. It starts with Domino's pizza didn't answer our call, seriously are they too busy that night? Really frustrated when I can't have the tuna temptation in my mouth!

During the confession and stuff, I can't hold it and burst into tears. When Alin start it off, I was kinda shock to see people's reaction, seat down quietly and listen to her. Adlin's confession was really shocking, I never know that she had a really tough life, she is the last person on earth that I think will have problem, really seriously... While Anisah's one, I realize how important to say thank you to people, and shows the appreciation to people around us.

Three years with you guys are really awesome. At first I was really scared to know that I'm going to that school, it was odd and I felt out of place, not belong to you guys. First person that I knew was Athirah and she gave a really good impression to me and felt secure to be with her.

Shanaa and fify, I'm really sorry, didn't have any intention to leave you guys alone and do those works alone, at that time the only thing in my mind was play, play and have fun... I'm really sorry.

Alin, Anisah, Amyrah, Aynaa and Hanna. Thanks for giving me a good time and be there for during my hard time. I can't go through those days without you guys, I can't show how much I love you and how to thank you, because I really don't know how to do it, I don't know how to express my feelings to people. I'm really sorry, I wish, I could spend another awesome day with you all.

Hanna, I never thought that you would say those word when we're about to be apart. Time that I spent with you was very short but full with laughter, and I wish I could have some more. I really wish that I could be your adopted sister. I'll try to prove myself Hanna, I'll miss your smiles and smiling eyes.

Anisah, I didn't spent much with you, and I have to admit that its hard for me to write this. I wish I could be like you strong and know how to express feelings whenever it needs. Confident with ourself and be a good leader, that's what you taught me. I'll use that when I'm in a new place, new school later. And sorry for squishing, didn't get a good sleep isn't?

Amyrah, thanks for welcoming me during my first day in Amiga, warmness that you gave. And how delicate when you handle things, I'll try to practice it. I'll always remember that. Lent to me all your stuff even when we barely know each other during the first few days in school, I know it need more that just a "Thank you". Amyrah.. don't always hide your feelings, and follow your heart.

Aynaa... Even though some of your jokes might hurt my feelings, guess that that's your way to cheer things up. When you were there to gimme support during the confession, I was really touched and you convinced me to follow what my heart says. Some day, I want to see you in your own cooking show., may I?

Alin, when you were there with me I was really shocked. I thought that you're the last person that I could spend time and hang out with, don't ask me why, just because... All the talks at the pool side this morning I'll put it in mind. And the promise... I'll try to fulfill it. Hope that I could be loud like you, cheerful just like you.

You guys taught me a lot, I won't be here without you. I'll pursue my dreams just like you guys taught me. I'll gather everything in you guys and put it in me so that I'll never forget time that we spent. Keep the bracelet and wear it okay?

To Aeen and Amall, let's start it all slowly.

I have friends in overalls whose friendship I would not swap for the favor of the kings of the world. ~Thomas A. Edison

Hate the Idea of Giving Up

2010-11-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Okay, I've made up my mind, I'm gonna study account and be an accountant! :)

Yeah, I know its hard, and it took awhile to be a professional and recognized accountant,but just put some effort in it, and it will be easier. And I just found out that there's forensic accountant, the one who trace debauchery, that will be extreamly fun! But, the only thing is, we need to work for our own country. Its just against my dream to live and work in Korea, ordinary accountant won't give any challenge... :(

InsyaAllah, I'll get scholarship to further my studies in UK or Australia, but I guess I could only sit for it at UIA... Well, The only reason I didn't choose biology because I can't work with facts, why do we need to follow people's idea when we have ours?

Move on to K-pop! BEAST's new songs are superb awesome! I love it so much! Especially "Beautiful", I love the beat, melody and lyrics.. its so... nice. Naah, not the best word to describe. Love it, love it, love it!

2PM.. I'm disappointed with their comeback with "I'll be back". But the other songs, "I know" "I can't", kinda heal my disappointment.

Somehow, I'm kinda disappointed with SHINee.... mianhae

Have you ever tasted sincere love?" -Minho

Not knowing the consequences

2010-11-08T16:06:00.005+08:00

These few days are really tiring and seriously freaking confusing! I'm not sure whether what I plan and what I want are those things that I want for my future, for me. Whether or not I should give up on what I'm doing right now, or its just me being hypocrite for not letting go and can't accept the real truth.

I'm confuse with what they want. No, I don't even know what they really want! Are they just acting because they get annoyed with each other or what they that's how they are? What can I do now? Aaah, just go with the flow! Are they fooling me, is it just a trick?

I really wish I could read people's mind, their mind.

"I think it's better to get closer slowly than trying to get close in the beginning."-Minho

You're like my oxygen

2010-11-04T01:58:00.003+08:00

Gulp

But, I can breath without you.

Adios.

"You are my flower because you have already blossomed in my heart."-minho

Take me with you

2010-11-02T19:53:00.005+08:00

Overall, Berjaya trip is not so bad.. well I really wanna be part of that college, its awesome! Your class room is the actual kitchen or restaurant or hotel, wouldn't it be great? But, the price is great too..! Of course, what so you think? 60k for 2 years and 5 months coarse, I could have rob a bank to attend that! Without any scholarship, I couldn't make it, seriously... =.=

But, on the way back is hell! Stand in the bus for 30 minutes! Hitch the first bus since we really need to be in school before 2.30, so there we go, naah, its actually Myra can't really count how many times she almost fall down, close! :)

Alin's chibae.. well, discuss for the BBQ stuff for the hundredth thousandth times! Its fixed, if they change again, I won't take part, seriously, I mean it, no jokes!

So yeah, its a freaking tiring day, gonna sleep now! o.O

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. ~Elisabeth Foley

buy me rifle right now!

2010-11-01T21:39:00.003+08:00

What the hell is wrong with them? We planned everything, I really mean it everything! And now, they're freaking annoying and wanna change the date? Common la people, can't you make some sacrifice for our last year together? We are really freaking tired to dance to your tunes! Damn, can I take a knife and stab them in the most polite way, anyway =.=

keep it silent is not the way

2010-10-27T19:48:00.004+08:00

OMO!

That's the only thing I could say... Jjong is dating, that sounds like fantasy or dream, seriously, if they're still alive without being chase by fans, that's a MIRACLE!

Jonghyun and Se Kyung, they are really absolutely cute! May both of you live happily ever after, and be strong with the path that you chose, Hwaiting!

The only thing that I'm afraid now is I may loose HIM ~~(not jjong!)~~ soon after this, soon enough... I'm Really, really afraid.

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

Do you trust me?

2010-10-25T23:54:00.004+08:00

I've download this book titled "THE BEST GIRL". Download it since Aynaa insist me to read more books and I'm totally lifeless rite now! Its a great story, but my eyes are burning and aching to read it on computer. Two option, buy one or print it out, haaih.. real books a way better!

This is so not my dream life for post-PMR! I thought, we'll go somewhere to hang out and stuff...!

Instead we're gonna stuck in Library to help with those chores. Please.. please.. I hope that gathering plan will work out!

Till then, someone is freaking out, its late!

Ooouh Aynaa, better buy me books for present! :)

Every parting is a form of death, as every reunion is a type of heaven. ~Tryon Edwards

Don't hold grudge

2010-10-21T22:25:00.008+08:00

Are those ladies really exist?

Imagine these wicked eyes while you're reading! xp

Pictures belong to its rightful owner :)

Yeah! Finally I've printed out all 13 chapters of "ITS NOTHING BUT PAYBACK". This is my first fan-fic that I actually read and get into it. Story, plot, characters, are all awesome! Just that, I hate the author for not completing the story, YET! How can she have such a brain and imagination, to change everything and everyone into a whole new character? Gangster Minho, abusive Taemin, Onew who cheated on his GF, Key as a womanizer and Jjong is engaged? WTH!

I love Minho and Jungmin couple, wonder how will they end the conspiracy, killing each other? Please don't! But it will be great though, not a cliche ending. And I'm sure I'll tear up to read and imagine those! If Minho is not in any gang, he must be a really protractive, loyal and sweet boyfriend. (Which is my wish to have a BF like him!)

And I just found out there's a 'casting' post for all the characters in the story before this fan-fic actually start! They actually did a casting?

Bye! Off to re-read it for the uncounted time.

Can you believe I'm reading?

Oouh wait, I'll fill up NILAM book with fan fic!

Adios! ^^

Year Of Us

2010-10-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

The moments I touch your heart, my life begins.

When you're tired or having a hard time, please let me stand by your side.

So that I could give back the love that I always receive from you.

Whenever he pass by me, or stand by me, my heart won't stop pounding,

that feeling was so... much, aah, I can't describe it, why? Ottokae?

Why do I get so EMO lately?

Whatever...!

Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river. ~Malagasy Proverb

nobody is perfect

2010-10-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

Ooouh, okay, I'm sick of these! We're suppose to enjoy our trip here right?
Instead, from the minute we arrive I've receive so many scolding, only blogging could heal me.

Why don't you stop rely everything on me and do it yourself as you want it so perfect?
And don't give people advice if you're doing the same mistake and worst!

Please...please...please, get me out of here!

Just wait a little bit, I'll be with you soon-Minho

Currently in torture chamber

2010-10-15T13:41:00.005+08:00

What can I say?

I'm bored! I'm bored till at the edge of killing people right now, yeah and I do mean it!

Seriously, why am I stuck here at home while everyone are having fun?

Fine.. going to PD today, hope there's something to do there, other than seating on the beach and staring at the ocean. Please give me something fun to do! xp

I'll walk the pathway that we walked-four seasons

I'm out of tears

2010-10-14T23:49:00.006+08:00

Sometimes its better to keep it with yourself, than telling people around you.

It might cause trouble and chaos again...

Give me a break, I'm tired.

My appearance might says I'm strong, but deep inside I really weak.

Yeah! All I want is a break for forever, may I?

But for now ,keep on smiling and everything will be fine ^^

Friends are kisses blown to us by angels. ~Author Unknown

A day out

2010-10-13T18:39:00.009+08:00

Mwahaha.. I think this is the only picture of me :)

Alin and Anisah ^^ always do posses

I love this candid so much, she's pretty rite?

Wee Sheng is so blurr, and Jonathan's exclusive face :)

One of those ideas!

Went to Dorsett Hotel in Subang, I thought its a car showcase because teacher told us that Toyota held it, that was the first thing pop in my mind -CARS!

But it turn out to be an Eco Youth -Battle-of-the-champion competition. Its kinda bored at first, but when we're there, everything turn up to be noisy and chaos, well, that's us, how can we keep our mouth shut when we have one?

One thing for sure, I really adore them, nope, its jealous! Their brain, how can they think of those ideas, and why our school didn't participate in this stuff?Whatever, but we manage to built some sort of tower using box strips, its 83 inch! That's 2nd place, lost to that boys school by 4 inch!

Till then.. anyong! ^^

The only thing that overcomes hard luck is hard work. ~Harry Golden

Help needed

2010-10-12T23:06:00.005+08:00

Hey, again updating stuff on forum.

But, why suddenly I felt so sad, lonely, empty, like there's nothing I would like to do or think, or anyone to talk to.

Aaah, I'm just so lost right now, I have no idea what my feeling is right now... I... -

Why? why? why? Keep on echoing in my mind, keep on thinking the answer, but there's none.

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. ~Author Unknown

cause i need your LOVE

2010-10-12T16:43:00.003+08:00

Ever since I fell in love with you, my heart beats really fast when I saw you.

After meeting you,

each day is exciting, each day my heart greets with flutters,each days grow shorter,

each day is mild and soft .After I meet you, I became a princess, in your heart.

Cause I love you, cause I need you -Vanilla Love

Freedom baby freedom!

2010-10-11T17:58:00.004+08:00

Yeah! PMR is finally over! We dont have to be like this anymore LOL! :)

Update more, later! Anyong!

I learned the real meaning of love. Love is absolute loyalty. People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades. You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them. And that's love, even if it doesn't seem very exciting. ~Sylvester Stallone

Time I spent by your side

2010-10-05T17:20:00.004+08:00

If I hate you, I'll shout it out loud,

If I miss you, I'll shout it out loud.

If I really LOVE you, I will never say it,

as long as I know that you're still in me,

I'll never regret those time I spent with you.

The antidote for fifty enemies is one friend. ~Aristotle

My precious locket

2010-09-23T17:38:00.004+08:00

I know he's superb hot, but don't look at him for too long, promise you that I'll hunt whoever that look at him for more than 30 seconds, you'll suffer! :)

With Lots and Lots of LOVE!

Happy birthday to Kim Ki Bum! ^^

There's no reason not to like you,

You're awesome!

May all your wishes come true, and have a marvelous 19!

(But you're older in Korea)

생일 축하!

Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river. ~Malagasy Proverb

I just wanna be me

2010-09-14T00:07:00.004+08:00

I'm 15 now! ^^

Thanks to parents for willing to have me here for 15 years,

raising me up, trying to give me the best. (and hoping for the best as return)

Not hoping you guys to throw a party, or gifts, because you will never do that.

Just a simple, short but a sincere wish from your heart.

As to my friends, sorry for giving you guys lots of trouble

for having me around,hurt your feelings and gives you a miserable day.

Anything that you thought of copying your stuff and style, I just dun't realize it.

My words and action always give hard time for you,죄송합니다.

Forgive my mistakes before I leave... :)

I’ve been cut a lot, my heart is bleeding
When it’s about time for me to pass out
She comes to me like an angel, saying “I love you”
Even though I knew it was really you
You really confused me - Lucifer

Waiting for next Summer

2010-09-13T18:32:00.014+08:00

I'm not a good photographer,

so.. hehe ^^

My grandparents...

2nd Raya- on the way to Melaka

3rd day-in front of a house in a rubber estate ;)

Anyong!

So here I am in my house after four days at hometown in Negeri Sembilan.

Raya...?! Okaylah... Didn't really celebrate since PMR is around the corner, stick with those books just make me look like a nerdie-nerd when those guest come to pay a visit!

On the second and third Raya we when around Melaka and Negeri Sembilan to visit our relatives. The journey are longer than the time we spent to visit those people.

Didn't get much Duit Raya since they said I'm really tall... (Aargh! its just their excuse)

Play time is over, study hard and smart!

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit. ~Peter Ustinov

As for you, the one who sent me the first Raya text,

Don't keep any promise if you can't.

I've never said that I won't forgive, but the way you sake for forgiveness, or to forget is the hardest. If you want to step out of my world, just leave without leaving any scar on my heart...

Take away everything with you. :)

The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau

Hate you love you

2010-09-07T15:17:00.006+08:00

Ramadhan has come to its end, Syawal will be here soon,

meaning that PMR will be here in a few days... (28days)

I guess there's nothing fun, same as past years, after the ask-for-forgiveness session

everyone will be doing their own stuff...

Raya nowadays are really bored, its really different when we're younger

one big family will dine together, all the laughter, eat Lemang and Ketupat with Redang, the taste are not same now.

Maybe a convoy to relatives house on the next day, firecrackers at night

Those excitement are now gone...i can't feel the same thing anymore.

Btw, Selamat Hari Raya, and forgive me for all my mistakes, if I can't see you guys any longer.

I'll miss you guys so much, and don't forget to study for the exam!

The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest

Your voice still lingers

2010-09-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

Exam's result are out, and my rank really drop!

Its the exact feeling as climbing or walking on mountain's cliff and accidental fall down

and that's the end of your life!

Hyeshuhu... T.T

Is it already too late to rush everything now?

there's about 34 days left to the real battle!

The only thing that overcomes hard luck is hard work. ~Harry Golden

the beginning of each will then ended

2010-08-30T23:44:00.007+08:00

영원히!

Remember this forever and always.. ^^

Ermm... Hye!

So, here it is! The new skiiin...!

Agree with Alin, it is really hot! Go ahead and heck anything you want, just don't do any nonsense stuff! ^^ SHINee's forum is really fun!

Thanks to Hanna too, for mentioning this skin for last few days, hahaha! ^^

Its Merdeka day tomorrow (16 minutes more), but we still need to attend some class for the sake of PMR!

Gonna stick with all those books till the exam really end! Can't wait for it!

Raya holiday won't be fun, same lame excuse used! EXAM!

Don't mind it, since I don't really celebrate Raya for past few years...

(p/s: request here! I've got a playlist at http://www.mixpod.com/share.php, so

could you heck and add the playlist here? He..he ^^)

Friends are those rare people who ask how you are and then wait for the answer.

I will risk everything for you

2010-08-30T21:17:00.007+08:00

You. So. Owe. Me. For. This

☜(⌒▽⌒)☞

Haha, I keeeeeeed! Anyway, yep as you can see it's all done. This is the best that I can do and hope you're not disappointed or anything. But then again, why would you be? Thiz skin is hawwt!

Oh wait I have to remind you this, please don't make your posts too messy because you'll just cramp the layout if you do so.

So last words : Enjoy your new skin!

p/s : ~~Now that I have your password, I'm gonna hack into your account in SHINee World and read some fanfics there. Nye he he heh~~ :P

Okay wait scratch that. I can't log in =='

Alin

When will I be gone

2010-08-28T22:42:00.008+08:00

Filling up the empty space here!

Luck never gives; it only lends. ~Swedish Proverb

Forget love - I'd rather fall in chocolate! ~Sandra J. Dykes

A lonely heart

2010-08-27T01:25:00.007+08:00

Hyesyhhuhu!

Can't stop laughing! ^^

Its midnight, I might sound like a vampire!

Hmm... boredom strikes again!

I'm updating myself on SHINee's forum since,

that will be the second site that I'll open after

playing games on Facebook.

Than it will be Twitter which I've tweet more than 10 tweets today.

Reading allkpop over and over again without knowing

what am I actually reading though! (oouh and those macros are

hilarious, and sometimes might be offended)

Finding for fan-fic that could attract my attention,

since Alin and Hanna insist me to read those! (But I couldn't find one)

There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved. It is God's finger on man's shoulder. ~Charles Morgan

I'm weak and lost without you

2010-08-21T01:11:00.004+08:00

Okay...

What can I say now?

Serve me right!

Ha..ha.. ^^

I'm so proud of my result before,

And now it turn up like this!

I'm a failure isn't?

Its just a simple test...

But I can't get it right,

When everyone else could!

Supposing you have tried and failed again and again. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down. ~Mary Pickford

No! I'm not blushing! ^^

2010-08-13T20:52:00.006+08:00

Something really touching, memorable and... sweet happened.

Good for them,

I don't think they'll know how much important

them to each other if that doesn't happen.

I envy them,

wish that mine could end in the same way as their's,

just its too late!

You can always tell a real friend: when you've made a fool of yourself he doesn't feel you've done a permanent job. ~Laurence J. Peter

True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable. ~Dave Tyson Gentry

When present didn't pass by, and past stood still

2010-08-10T19:00:00.003+08:00

I listen to those songs,

their lyrics and rhythm are really nice and pleasant.

But, I felt empty.

There's nothing special behind them...

I've tried to make them meaningful,

As special as those songs before,

But, I just couldn't find one.

Forget about those craps up there!

Yeay its the best month of the year!

Ramadhan,

Can't wait for it tomorrow!

Do I love you because you're beautiful,
Or are you beautiful because I love you?
~Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II, Cinderella

Greatest gift of all

2010-08-07T00:08:00.004+08:00

Thanks Hanna for the 'open' section! ^^

Huh!
I need him to give me strength...

For you see, each day I love you more
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.
~Rosemonde Gerard

Till we meet again...

I'm watching Chowder :)

2010-08-02T14:33:00.009+08:00

Hey-yo :)

This is Hanna, the cleaner for this blog. Apparently, it is very *coughs* dusty right now. The blog is left by it's owner, Edora because she's so busying study and I'm not -_-'

So, do take a look at the brand new "^open" section.

I cropped, edited the pictures myself okay and now I'm tired. 20 is hard okay, and I got it all from the MV so I have to wait for it to load and my internet is slow and everything. I'm pretty good huh? HAHA No lah. I know some are weirdly edited and cropped, sue me.

So, ummm BYE and Happy Studying :)

PS My favorite one is the top 3rd from the left :)

Your endless love

2010-07-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

Aigoo...

How am I suppose to say this?

I didn't love you

as I do before..

But, I can't let you go...

You're tooo precious!

I always tell myself to leave you,

But,

I fail to do it each time I hear your voice

even now,

your voice keep on playing...

-mh

Party is over back to reality

2010-07-18T00:06:00.012+08:00

aIGOO... Here's some pictures from today's dinner...

As I said before, this is the last post before the extreme long break,

Its a long day today, from the wait for dinner to the end, its torturing!

Party is over, world cup ends. So there's no reason for not concentrating on exams and studies.

Dinner... sorry, but its not as I expected, really really really sweating hot and there's no water!

Duh?! Performance? First few are okay, beat-box, some* singing, some* dancers... (*SOME! )

Credit to :

Hanna - for lending me your shoulder, did you get wet?

Aynaa and Alin - cheered me up

My aunt - for make-up and hair

Lucifer... I'm sorry, I can't be there...

P/S its Taemin's birthday today!

생일축하합니다

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz

Last gift, one last love, farewell...

xoxo,

Edora

생일축하합니다

Till we meet again

2010-07-17T01:11:00.006+08:00

Hye guys!

Maybe this is the last post, nope second last since, I'll post something for tomorrow's event.

Can't online anymore since my marks are going to drain, and this modem thingy will be safely kept until all the exams are over. S0, three torturing months to endure.

I'll miss SHINee's comeback for sure..

Watching their teaser over and over again.

their image are really different, I can't recognize them anymore!

I'm so sorry dear... I can't be there.

~~(Stop those tears!)~~

I'll blame myself

2010-07-16T18:22:00.002+08:00

Pre-Trial paper is over everyone!

One more trial to go before the actual one comes....

Aigoo! I felt like committing suicide each time I give a thought about it, didn't do the best though!

Tomorrow will be Twealveans unmasked talent search - which means a dinner with masquerade theme, but we didn't wear that annoying mask for sure!

Aaargh, didn't have the party mood!

See ya ...!

You're not the only one who watch the sunset alone

2010-07-15T16:47:00.004+08:00

SHINee will be back soon, but I don't know to whom will I be telling all the charm and charismatic that they'll present...

Can you feel the pain?

Do you know how it is?

No one could feel it...

non-stop playing

2010-07-11T14:38:00.007+08:00

Sorry, I can't upload the song, find it at YouTube la ek?! he..he..^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84KWai3qwYU

Currently and forever love this song, not because of the title but, the meaning behind these lyrics.

I've been waiting

When warm spring arrives, smiling as bright as the sun, I'll remember you
When the weather became comfortable, while suggesting we should go outside, you woke me up

Even during those long hot summer days, you stuck fast to my side at all times
When my brows would be moistened from my sweat, I'll remember how you would always wipe it off for me
I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you (Until the end)
I'll remember your image hidden in all four seasons
If I close my eyes, it's like you're suddenly here with me
I'll wait for you (Without changing, I'll wait)
I'll remember your image hidden in all four seasons
If I close my eyes, it's like you're suddenly here with me

I remember that one fall we strolled on that path while holding hands
I remember it again
Dividing one yellow pigmented leaf that had fallen
I remember

It always seems like I go through all four seasons
You're still inside me
Whenever the cold winter wind blows, I think of you everytime
I still haven't been able to ungrasp the hope of you returning to me
But I could never let you go

The winter's white snow that has fallen and covered everything to its capacity
Inside the sweater, you had shyly given to me as a present
Your scent still lingers

There's something special about these lyrics, maybe you won't understand...

When I lost my way

2010-07-10T14:36:00.003+08:00

안녕 내 친구!

Hye guys! Nothing much here since there's trial this Monday.Good luck everyone!!!!

This is the translation for that thingy picture up there :The majority of people entering and leaving your life but only good friends leave footprints in your heart.

Magic words

2010-07-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

Make your self used to saying these two words up here. It could change a lot.

Sometimes things get too tough that I can't handle it anymore. But I'm forced to face everything. But, life is the best school that we've ever been to, appreciate peoples, things around you, ha..ha.. ^^

4 days to trial...

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wind, Sand and Stars, 1939, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

Sorry is a complicated word

2010-07-06T16:19:00.002+08:00

For everyone who is having a hard time and just needs to hear that the words"I'm Sorry", even if it is not coming from the correct person.

Saying Sorry can also be therapeutic to the person saying it. Just the word Sorry shows the person that you are telling it to that you reconized that you did something wrong and it made you feel bad.

So the simple word Sorry can not only help the person that needs to hear it, but the person who is saying it as well.

Am I an unlucky star?

2010-07-05T16:19:00.002+08:00

I thought everything will be fine after all the chaos, but my prediction is a total mistake! The same thing that just passed, comes again.

Is it because of my present?

Is it?

Wherever I go, wherever there's me in any place there will be trouble. Maybe, I'm really a troublemaker, that cause much much trouble to others.

I better get going now...

죄송합니다